summer break started a few weeks ago, and i moved back in with my parents from my dorm. i didn't complete one of my classes' final assignments so the "break" concept isn't entirely true. i have been stressing about this project, but not working on it. and now, less than a week away from the due date, Final.docx is empty of words and Game Maker sits dusty and unopened on my computer's task bar. i can probably make it on time and pass my exam too, but either way i'm feeling quite depressed. too much time spent on social media is ruining my ability to tell one day apart from the previous and the next, but i can't stand living with my mother! i can't stand not being able to be myself in what is supposed to be my own home. but im also not taking any steps to get out, so i can't complain too much. i threw my first ever job aplication to a cool project that'll probably take professionals before me, but i am still glad i did it.

music has been nice. will wood is back on my usual rotation. i'm listening to songs of his i hadn't listening before and rediscovering my love towards some i used to listen to without really getting the lyrics. i always love when that happens...such a special connection. i go to the beach for a walk on the shore before the sun starts to set to set, headphones on with the sea and the families getting ready to leave on the background. there are some spots where you can stand and be entirely surrounded by silence. no clue why that happens, but it feels nice. it's like the sea is eating every sound before it reaches you. i've been bringing my cybershot cam with me and taking some pictures.

maybe i'll bring a book and go for a swim and a read one of these days. i've been reading the copy of the shining my boyfriend lent me. i think it's their brother's. it's a paperback (yesss) and very old but i still try to be careful with it...

all in all, i just want to learn how to actually calm the fuck down. i'm stressed all the time, and the heat is really not helping! i'm once again obsessed with a videogame character that takes up way too much space in my mind every second of every day...and i'm still not doing my project. may get started with it once i finish writing this. may not. may go back to drawing crts. and life will still be beautiful.

^romeo's self portrait of him drawing every night with his bangs tied back